Thursday, October 04, 2007

I am not one for long winded goodbyes, however this is to be my last ever blog post.

I am leaving for a new job in a couple of days where I will not have net access, nor the time to comment or post. I am exceedingly excited, Stace will not be accompanying me on this new course and I may not see her for the next 3 months.

I have never been good at saying goodbye generally I just disappear save the scandal til the end, leave without saying goodbye. I used to joke about not wanting o be present at my funeral, the truth is I didn’t want to be the only one there. Now as I grow older I realise that people do care, people do notice when I am not around, and it makes walking away a lot harder. However adventure calls, a chance to change the world, to be a good person and make a difference to world which is in desperate need of change.

To all that have posted here thank you for your support, Keshi for your humanity, Within Without your sense of justice and family are a rarity in this day and age, Menchie for showing how you can be successful and a mum, Lee a life with family and Monty Python, Whitesnake for not being afraid to be flawed and imperfect I will miss your honesty, Cazzie for showing history can be fun and listening to my pointless tales, Jewell who I feel is almost a second grandma to me, Shelly angry but alive, Paul who gave me a lifetime of thought In a single post, and Homoesapeons whose writing and life always challenged and provoked my own preconceived ideas. To anyone I missed I am sorry this was written in a hurry, but to all of you, thank you I will miss you all, thanks for showing me your lives and I wish you many more happy posts.

Take care out there to all of you…

Finaly…

Up until three years ago I felt like my life meant nothing, that I was running around in circles lost and incomplete, kind of like a man with only one roller-skate on. My final goodbye is for my beloved wife, without who none of this would be possible, I love you Stacy, I will miss you, if you need me I am only a phone call away…

Thanks for the second skate….

Thanks to Chris Hall and Stabbing Westward for my final song…The song is called Angel.

I believed that love was sacred
As I dove blindly into her sea
You see, that warm embrace felt more like drowning
As endless waves crashed over me

She was an insatiable black hole
Feeding off my mind and off my soul
I find love humilating
Sick and desperate need that drains me
God I hope I never feel again

But I've never been loved by an angel
I've never felt anything so pure
I've never been loved by an angel
Until tonight your heaven filled my room

She showed me love could lift me higher
With a kiss she reparied these broken wings
She revived my fading spirit
Restored my faith in everything

I have never felt I had a home
Even in a crowd I felt alone
I'd almost given up on life
I'm fully determined now
And never thought I'd ever feel again

I believed in nothing
But you believe in me
I thought that life was worthless
But you told me I'm a star


Wish me luck:)

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15 Comments:

Blogger Jewel said...

I hardly know what to say, Aidan. My, but I will miss you and your unique posts and your quirky way of putting things. Please, at least don't delete your blog, because you'll surely have a snippet of time somewhere in the busyness of life to just let us know how you are, hm? I'm so touched that you thought of me as a "grandma". How very sweet of you. I will be praying for you and your new endeavor and for Stace as she carries on with life in your absence. I've come to care deeply for both of you sweet young people. Take care. ((HUGS))

6:58 PM  
Blogger Menchie said...

Oh no! first HE and now you.

I am going to miss you Aidan but hopefully we will still get to hear about you from Stace.

Take care and good luck, wherever you will be going. :D

10:24 PM  
Blogger Cazzie!!! said...

Hey, what's this about mindless chatter you say? You always gave me a second view on things when we spoke of anything logical...thanks for that.
So..where are you off to? Antarctica or what? Whatever it is, it has got to be so bloody good for you not to miss it, and so good an opportunity that it takes ya away from Stace..she will survive, and you will both be stronger for it :)

4:52 AM  
Blogger TidalGrrrl said...

Oh Aidan...good luck to you - I have always appreciated your presence on my blog and on the blogs I visit.

You are already missed.

*hugs*

-Shelley

8:40 AM  
Blogger Stace said...

Did you have to use a song I like? Every time I hear it I know I'll get all emotional!

4:10 AM  
Blogger homo escapeons said...

((POOF))
I will never forget you Aidan, you are an extrordinary person with a great brain and an equally marvelous attitude...
and I fully expect to hear from you in the future when you get settled.

This sounds like a great opportunity and I know that you will make the most of it.

Before I slink back into the abyss I just wanted to make sure that you knew how much I admire you and I miss your refreshing curiousity and calm reasoning. I will be thinking of you and stace and your challenge over the coming months..sounds like a 'leg-up' type deal so it will all be worth it in the long run..right!?

Take care my friend and have fun excelling..

((POOF))

9:19 PM  
Blogger Keshi said...

I cant believe Im reading this post 8 days after u've posted it! And d u know what Im doing now..sitting here n shedding tears on my KB! Seriously Aidan this isnt ur last post, is? U mean u'll never blog again? NEVER? :*(

Anyways I wish u well in ur new position mate! I know u'll do well in whatever u take over. U r smart, witty, caring, sensitive and a truly beautiful humanbeing! It was GREAT knowing ya and I intend to drop in here from time to time. And I hope I'd see a post from u again...some day...yeah I can wait. :)



** I used to joke about not wanting o be present at my funeral, the truth is I didn’t want to be the only one there.

LOL ur funny!


MISS U MADLY!
Keshi.

10:27 PM  
Blogger Keshi said...

and how can I forget this:


****HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGS****

and tears..

Keshi.

10:28 PM  
Anonymous Hildegarde said...

A new job, a new start, a new world to discover : that's wonderful !! Too bad you can't be with Stace for 3 months, but it will be even better when you're together again, don't you think ? I wish you success and good luck ! If you ever start blogging again, please let me know. It was a pleasure to know you. You're a star ! and so is Stace.

1:42 PM  
Blogger Within Without said...

Hey Mate...

Haven't been around Blogland much myself lately, so only seeing this a few days before Halloween.

You'll be missed, of course. But it's good knowing you exist in this world, and that's enough.

Have funda asunda Down Unda. If you're ever in Canada, you and lovely Stace now how to find me.

Chris

8:56 PM  
Blogger Stace said...

Three years ago I wanted to save you, fix you, cure you, make you so happy. I don't know if I've done that, but I do know that you seem happier than you used to be. I hope I had a little something to do with it. I love you and I miss you.

10:27 PM  
Blogger Keshi said...

missin ya mate..

Keshi.

5:13 PM  
Blogger lee said...

Better late than never. You wrote this post the day after my surgery. All the very best to you aidan -you're a bit of a character -which is the best thing that a person can say about another. Goodbye to you.

9:35 PM  
Blogger Keshi said...

Stace tells me ur doing fine. Im glad :)

Still I miss ur posts...

Keshi.

9:11 PM  
Blogger Donn said...

OK you can come back now!

11:53 AM  

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